Box of Chocolate

life is like a box of chocolate

at first you are happy to receive it

then you know you really shouldn’t eat any more chocolate right now so you put it in your desk drawer, “hidden” until the new year

but then about 30 minutes later you remember it’s in there and you dig it out and open it up and eat one

Ok so maybe life is nothing like a box of chocolates. Except for that… difficulty with delayed gratification, thing.

Palm Readers

I’ve always found them oddly tempting…

they advertise their evil doings with neon signs.

Morning

I had a plan, and I wanted to do it.

But then, the heater was on high and we couldn’t figure out how to turn it off (all the way to the left – still on, all the way to the right – still on, half-way in the middle – STILL ON), so at about quarter to four I woke up. And couldn’t get back to sleep. For the next two hours.

But the plan was to get up “early,” do devotions, be on time for work.

I ended up sleeping past my alarm by 30 minutes. But I did my devotions while drinking decaf tea (rooi bos pomegranate blueberry – antioxidants *drool*), fiddled with the heater, wrapped a present (which was a cylinder and took way longer than I expected), packed my breakfast, toothbrush, and leftovers into my purse (which saved me time), and made it to work … the same time lots of others did.

I splashed water on my face, too, to “wake up.” It worked, I suppose (it felt nice since I was so hot last night) but then my face felt like it was drying out as I sat and read.

I’m going to try again tomorrow. I want to do this. It feels … good. Healthy.

Ideal Day

Wake-up at sunrise (7:46am) or just before.
Drink warm decaffeinated beverage while sitting in chair and read Bible. Spend an hour reading the Bible, and praying.

Do 100 pushups or 100 situps or whatever sort of exercise program that gets me feeling more energized, for 20 minutes.

Go to nearby park (field) and sit(?) for 15 minutes with sun on face. Or do some sort of nature walk for 15 minutes. Someplace peaceful. Something extra on my way to work that’s not just my route.

Go to work for 9 am. Eat a snack at 10:30 am. Eat lunch with folks in the lunchroom. If there’s no one there, read a book. Eat a fruit or something, at 3 o’clock. Keep the metabolism going.

Dinners should be from my meal plan. Either I’m reheating something I’ve already made, or I have the ingredients ready.

Evenings are dynamic, ever-changing.

But get ready for bed at 10 pm. Brush teeth. Read a book before bed. Always reading books (not just articles, not just the internet).

Hmm.

My blog has had an umber of twitter-short posts lately. Hmm.

DRAMAAAAA

I attract it.

Nervous Breakdown

I googled a Nervous Breakdown.

I’m not having one.

In case you’re wondering if you might be having one, here are some symptoms:

• Disinterest in work or family life
• Disinterest in social life or alienation from previously close friends and family
• Sleep disruption or much longer periods of sleep
• Significant changes in appetite, such as eating too little or too much
• Paranoid thoughts, such as the thought people are trying to harm you
• Thoughts of grandeur or invincibility
• Feelings of persistent anxiety or panic attacks
• Hearing voices
• Seeing people who are not there
• Thoughts of dying or wish to die
• Exhibiting strong or violent anger
• Having flashbacks to a prior traumatic event
• Increasing dependence on alcohol or drugs
• Inability to pursue a normal life, normal activities or normal relationships

From here.

Fear and Loathing

A sign of in-over-your-head-itis.

I wouldn’t recognize you

if I saw you on the street.

That’s why I didn’t invite you to my wedding.

Slay Your Dragons Before Breakfast

Slay Your Dragons Before Breakfast.

I read this and thought, “oh.”