January 1, 2013
I reread some of my other blog’s posts recently. The ones about personal finance and the Christian life. They’re pretty good. I worked hard on those. It was clear I was fresh out of my depression at the time. Vulnerable. A little volatile.
It’s been a year. Over a year. With one minor relapse when I tried to quit gluten (yes, I got depressed because of the constant, nagging awareness that I may never eat a croissant again, and life ceased to have meaning).
I’ve been depression-free for over a year.
My meds work. Praise God.
And I’m doing a master’s of divinity at Wycliffe College, at the University of Toronto.
But it’s been slow going. I’m relearning life.
Figuring out what I want, what I love, and living that life, instead of the life I think I should.
I have a dog now. It makes me very, very happy. Her name is Sweet Pea. Because she’s really sweet, and has a little pea head (it’s small compared to her broad shoulders).
I’m on Twitter. It gest most of my online thoughts: www.twitter.com/weeChristine
I have a few life goals, now.
(Other than owning a cabin in the woods, and directing/filming a documentary, and being a mother, and owning a hobby farm with chickens, goats, and an enormous vegetable garden. And kayaking whenever I get the chance.)
I want to be a doula.
And get my Master’s of Divinity!
That’s the current life goal. Do the M.Div. Then I will be a master of all things divine (which is… ironic, because if I was the master of the divine, I would be divine, and it would not be divine.) If you can wrap your head around it, it’s not God. Isn’t that amazing? Knowledge of God includes the acceptance that we can’t know it all. Knowledge contains mystery. Chyea.
I know I just started blogging again, so writing these things down might be crazy, but here are some things I want to blog about, maybe:
- Urbana 12 (didn’t go, but there are videos online of the plenary sessions I’d like to watch, and I’d also like to reflect on where I am now, since Urbana 09 kicked off 2 years of intense depression for me)
- why I want to be a doula
- Anglicanism (I’m taking an intro. to Anglican theology this semester, and trying to attend faithfully Little Trinity Church in Toronto, an Anglican church)
- living with a husband who isn’t a Christian, but who is still the best most awesome amazing wonderful God-given gift to me
- some of my crazy, drug-induced dreams (literally drug-induced: my anti-depression meds give me nightmares)
- my dad’s pre-dementia
- movies to see, because I still love movies and there are some good movies out there I’d like to see.
Until next time, whoever you are!